I just had a quarrel with my girlfriend. It turned out to be a brutal affair. As they say, there was always the sillence before the storm. This time round, the silence turned out to be much longer than before. Silence when I spoke to her, silence when the dishes are served, silence when I drove her back home. All in all, it took 3 hours before the storm erupted.
"Why are U so nice to other girls? If you are so concerned about SY, then go and help her out. SY had her blouse dirtied and you stood up, wanting to help her. More so, in front of your girlfriend."
I spoke back to defend. But defence wasn't a good strategy. In fact, continual defending resulted in a more severe toungue lashing.
I ask myself. Am I too nice to other girls? What's wrong with my girlfriend? What's wrong with me? Will other girls be mad if I had stand up, wanting to help, but not going out to help?
I thought hard. I just have to defend what I did. I did what was correct. As a friend, I would have rushed to SY's help, if not for other guys helping out.
Maybe the root casue of my state of mind confusion is that I am not ready for a girlfriend after all. Maybe having a gf will only cause me more worries. Maybe bachelorhood is my middle name, and having my gf only makes me worry. Maybe my gf just makes me realise what I want in a future partner...
So many maybe's.... Life is full of them. I might as well go single...