澄梅的时光

I was clearing my stuff when I stumbled upon a letter. It wasn't written on any white piece of paper, but on those arty A5 piece of note pad filled with flowers strewn as its letterhead.

It was a letter by my ex-gf. But it was a letter of complaint, whereby she would vent her frustrations on a piece of paper, about how insensitive & unloving I was. Afterwhich, she would go back to the sweet-loving gf that she would always be. I thought that it's a nice way to getting out those feelings. Afterall, it would have been more disastrous if she has kept it in her heart.

As I read, thoughts of regret filled my mind. I had ignored her feeling and had failed to see her concerns. She was voicing out how she really felt, but I had thought that it was just one of her many moments to air her thoughts.

In the end, I failed to treasure this long-term relationship. Regret filled my mind, as I asked - what if I had given myself a second chance? Would things have turned out differently? Was I too immature then? Or am I just reminiscing those lost moments?

Letting everything go by

As the saying 'Carpe Diem' goes, people would go 'Oh yes!' as they seize the day. Every day, we try to maximise our day, regardless of whether it is at work, at home or being out with our friends.

Today, I ask myself - what if I let everything go by. Would it be a waste of time? What if I do not treasue my time properly and let just watch the world go by...

I used to think that it is a waste of time. But today, I realise that it isn't. For it manages to relax my soul, builds my composure and gives me an insight to the outside world.

I watched the world go by,

I see how time flies,

I looked and asked myself why,

It's coz stopping is something they haven't try.

My world

I asked myself - how do I define this world of mine. It is made up of friends from all walks of life. They come from my secondary school, JC, university, toastmasters, work, social networking, dance classes to even acquaintances that I barely know from Facebook.

Whoever they are, they make up my life. They create this environment for me to live in, thereby proving my existence in this world. I am therefore, a social creature.

Recently, I am asked to be the President of my Toastmasters Club. My heart & mind were at wars with this question. It took me days to figure out the root cause of this 'war'. The cause - Am I willing to sacrifice my WORLD for this honorable duty?

The easy way out would be to remain status quo. But this is also a cowardly approach. So I decide to brainstorm. As I kill a few more braincells on this matter, I asked myself again - What honors do I hope to achieve for the club and myself in the midst of my sacrifice? Determining the honors will give me the light to the value of my worth.