Double Whammy

It came today. 2 consecutive hits onto me, one coming right after another. I got me thinking - fate wanted me to reflect. It couldn't come at a better time.

1. I was at an interview in town. One of the qns the interviewer asked was what are my career goals (and what I foresee myself when I am 35)? I paused, I deviated and then I struggled. I realise I don't know what my goals are. I have only figured out what I liked and what I don't. And the end of it all - I confessed to ther interviewer that I am only 28 and I wasn't sure myself.

2. Barely 15 mins later, I was heading to the MRT. I bumped into my sec sch friend whom we hadn't met for years. There was so much to catch up and we shared as much as we could whilst standing in a corner within the MRT station. And then it came again. He shared his career goals with me and asked me what was mine. That hit me, cos he is also 28 and he knew what his goals were.

It isn't the age. It was me. The undecided me, who haven't thought about my directions in my life and my career. The double whammy came and knocked some senses into me today.

3 little pigs

Yesterday, I gave an Advanced Project speech based on the story '3 little pigs'. It was one of the better speeches I have given, as I have prepared and rehearsed several times. This inspiration came from a boy who gave a similar speech in a competition; I then did Internet research, followed by typing out my speech. The process wasn't easy. There are 2 points worth to share - (i) Do something U like and (ii) Building a strong foundation is the essence to producing a good show.

(i) It took me a significant amount of time before I embarked on an Advanced manual. I then realised that it's not that hard, if I only knew that this is what I enjoy doing - storytelling. Today, I discover another aspect of myself - that I love to listen and tell stories.

(ii) The 3rd little pig spent significant amount of time building up his house of bricks. He did not take any short cut. Though this can be tedious, it will pay off when the wolf puts the houses to test. As the saying goes, you reap what you sow. But how many of us are guilty of just producing sloppy work just for the sake of getting it done?

Letting Go

Over the past couple of months, I finally let go. I let go of my relationship with my gf (of 2 years). I let go of my job (of 5 years). I let go of my tuition (of 3 years). I let go of toastmasters exco (of 2 years). These had been bugging me down recently. And when I let go, the burden off my shoulders has been released. I was able to stand straight and feel at ease.

Afterall, my life had been under so much control that I felt constrained. It was like ropes being tied onto me.

Today, I am not bonded. I wake up afresh. To chase my dreams. To live a new day.