Saturday, May 31, 2008

Coming to face with it

It's never an easy task - to face your your emotions. Something so personal, but yet why do we not have the courage to come face to it? Emotions are scary creatures. They thrust fear deep into you, swirl the sword of unhappiness around you and leave you feeling helpless. No wonder we do not dare to face our own emotions.

And when that happens, we are depriving a chance to understand ourselves better. We tell ourselves these sad feelings will go away with time.

But the truth is they don't. They just accumulate, like dust, over our hearts. Until a day where we will lose the ability to love and hate.

I once read, 'Embrace it, not escape it'. Only through embracing, then we can bring ourselves to the next level. And accept ourselves as who we are. I ask myself, why are we so afraid of knowing ourselves better? If the truth hurts, why not accept it now, than face the accumulated consequences unknowingly later?

Friday, May 30, 2008

Jetlagged

I just came back from South Africa. It was an overseas exercise that I had myself involved for. The duration - 32 days. Long enough for my body clock to be tuned into African's time zone. It's 8 pm over there now, though it's 2 am now in SG. Which means it's supposedly time for me to sleep but I can't. It must have jetlag.

Or am I just too used to the comfortable queen-sized bed I had during my stay there? Or could be it be difference in weather that make me perspire in SG even as I sleep? Feeling jetlagged could, afterall, be a reason in disguise.